Suddenly, Im Scared!

Hey readers!

I nak kembali menulis sekejap.Rasa macam dah lama tak merepek2 in my post.But now i guess i have something to share with u guys kan.so nak la cerita kat sini.Have u guys heard about 'stage fright'? Of course la kan.i think most of us ada that feeling.But before that, i nak ucapkan Alhamdulillah sebab i think i did well for my individual presentation today.This morning.the reason i cakap pasal stage fright adalah sebab tiba tiba i mengalami that feeling.Before this, i don't have any stage fright dalam presentation.Tak kisahla group or individual.and when the semester 2 started, i ada stage fright feeling.Seriusly.i jadi takut.tak keruan.gelisah.alah esah.and gelabah.and asyik baca notes berkali kali.and hafal keywords je.tak pernah i buat benda benda ni semua before.
macam ingat lagi masa time foundation, i macam selamaba je tak prepare any notes or research for my presentation.but guess what? i got A ok.and my confident level that time macam tak da masalah.pernah la sekal i ingat i pakai shorts and black sweater that time untuk present.gila tak? betapa selamba nya i.

so yang i peliknya, when semester 2 ni started.terus! jadi risau yang amat.tak percaya tanya my coursemate Musz.dia dah present lagi awal.so i asyik je tanya dia.how was the lecturer react? audience? did they ask you any question regarding the slides? points that u gave? ada tak diaorg tanya? and he answered jangan risau lah.it is only 5 minutes presentation.but i masih risau.amat risau.be very very risau.so malam tu i tidur like 2 hours je.i baca the notes and points.i practice sorang sorang dalam bilik.to make sure.i ready esok.

Nak tahu tak kenapa? i tiba tiba jadi gelabah tak tentu pasal ni? i fobia dengan final presentation
public relation i.that is the worst presentation i pernah but.the worst.and very bad.i dont know what im presenting? what the hell this topic is about? about this weirdo stuff.and i dont have any idea.dahla lecturer, Mr.Ben record each of us ok.untuk kasi prove kat Australia sana.i memang haprak! cakap macam 3 lines je kot? one the time comes to lecturer questioning us.I didn't answer any question at all.out of 5 questions tak silap.Im sucked.memang i dah tak tahu nak buat apa masa tu.yang lain muka happy je i tengok.they can answer.and they dominate the topic.what to do?

So sebab tu lah.i jadi macam ni tadi.and now i learn.bukan sesuatu yang betul dan kejayaan datang dengan mudah.u have to berusaha sangat bersungguh sungguh untuk memastikan you boleh lakukan nya dengan sempurna and memuaskan hati you.Like Paris Hilton punya music video "Sometimes a dreamer is a winner".but bukan angan angan mat jenin yer! Make it happened.and now im trying untuk always be prepare and nak hapuskan stage fright! Good luck.