Hey readers!
Moving on from the crazy upside down moods and let's talk about future. Lately, I realized one bad thing about me. You know, when life gets older and wiser we will think that what we did in the past was wrong. In my case, I regretted I don't pay attention when my English teacher taught me 'Grammar Lesson' in her class. It's like a dead bomb exploded in your life and suddenly you were thinking that do I have time to learn again? I really
admire my Arwah Abah's style of life. He never cares about what's in, what's up with his friends or even where to buy a new tie? All he cares is about books and foods. If I have a proper word to describe that I will tell you. Unfortunately I couldn't. Although he passed away when he was 63 years old (I was 14 years old, back in 2002), book never run from him. I still remember at the end day of his life he is still reading. He read a piece of paper that have some Islam's prays (not sure what it is, maybe bacaan surah surah) and I don't know what is in his mind.
Most of the people who are close with my family know my father. They know who he was in real life. They will portrays him as serious, well educated, dislike people with no proper education and most importantly, caring. I tell you, there is none of my relatives who dare to talk with him even my late grandmother are scared with him. It's not because
he has a case in past that he murder anyone but his facial expression and style are really serious. Most of the people who I met during Hari Raya occasion, for example my unknown auntie/uncle will say that, I'm just like my father. Just from face, style, eyes and smile. Personally, I have to admit that was the worst compliment I ever get from anyone that I met. Why? Right after the compliment, my mother will continue it with this line, "But he never follows his father's book worm". How should I react? That happened again last Raya for I'm not sure how many times, and what I did was, I quickly go to the table that full of
'kuih raya' cookies and choose the most anticipated cookies and fill it into my mouth (Usually, I will choose the one which easy to chew (
'kuih ros' or '
kerepek pisang') and grab it many times so that everyone will see me, oh! He's eating, don't ask him anything)
That's my fault. I never follow that book worm quality from my father. Sometime, it really makes me look like a dumb blonde. Yesterday,
a thiry-something, single but available old man asked me a question. Have I ever send any form of my writings collection to any publication company? A quick answer, No. He response to my answer with full of disappointed. He said "You should write an article in any topic and send it to any publication company like The Star or Reader's Digest (These two readings make a big different with NYLON or even Vogue). IF (He stressed the word 'if') your article is able to appear in any page of those publications, you are going to be a successful writer. Another thing, what else do you like to write? Do you like to write poem or short stories? (Ask my man, Mazri Mansor. He's the ghost of these two. Kidding!) Are you kidding me, thirty-something old man? Yes, again. It's my bad. I never take seriously about to getting involved or at least lead my way to writing field since I was small. Do you know how it looks like to be raised in a family who want their children in science stream? Well I do.
None of my sisters are in creative field. All of them are from business fields and counting shits. So they wanted the only boy in family to be involved in Science field. Too bad, the god didn't answer your pray for me to be in Science field.
When I think back what did the thirty-something old man said to me, it does gave me a big impact. I look throughout my essays and language skills it was bad. I feel like, tomorrow I need to get prepare for my first English class with Mrs. Pergas (My English teacher when I was standart 3). I must learn to sharpen up my English grammar. I want to learn from the beginning. Grammar for dummies. So, I was thinking that when all my assignments are over for this week I want to visit book stores. I need to spend my cash on real books.
I'm searching for the proper English grammar book and learn it carefully. I know it's quite late to learn back but at least I am in a process to correcting my English language. I want my English to be on the international level. That's what matter the most.
